A lost Sparkle 

We used to have a particular glow that I have not seen again since we separated our paths. I wonder if such radiance comes from doing things blessed by god and our families... maybe it is. 

They have it, I saw it in their eyes, in their smiles, an indescribable happiness that crosses any screen. 

Am not ready to move on and I have accepted that I may never will. I even agreed to myself that it’s alright. 

Everyone says that there is no point on regretting, but I just don’t care. I wish I wouldn’t feel the need of proving my point, the need of being with someone else to realize of how much I loved him and how happy we were.

She was right and so was I. She said I will regret it and so I did. I said he would find somebody, and he did. I always said he was so easy to love. Anyone capable of letting him go, will be a silly. 

Now more than ever I wonder what life is about, if there is actually a plan and we weren’t meant to be. Or if I just scrambled the pieces and we are going with the flow.

I’ve met more people in 9 month than in 6 years. How could possibly that not be on the books? 

This reality is very compelling, I just ran out of trust, I see deceive everywhere. 

Everything buys me but you. 

I don’t have the heart to tell you how wrong I was and what a disappointment we are. Forgive me, but every love word is stuck in my throat. 

I want my glow back.